all dressed up and nowhere to go

I'd like to take a few minutes to vent, if you'll excuse it.

My god this country is boring when you have two weeks to kill before your daily 3 week history course commences. It's been ages since my days haven't been packed with goings-on or at least something entertaining and cheery to fill the day with. Not that next week won't be packed, but it isn't the same.

I went and had my meeting with my advisor today which turned out to be her saying, "Well, you probably know this is just a formality since you already did your scheduling." "Yes." "How was your trip?" "Fantastic." "Good, well, e-mail if you have any questions." "Thanks." "Have a good day." "You too."

The mind simply swirls with the intelligence of that little rendezvous.

I also saw Tom, showed him photo album upon photo album. Talked about Amsterdam (and how he thought it was funny that I didn't pick up on his "Is the coffee still good in Amsterdam?" joke. I DID get it Tom, I just wasn't sure you actually meant it haha.

So I was back to the apartment by 10am, errands fulfilled. Conan was online, and had a brief conversation with him, which was good, to know he's still alive and all.

I'm going back on Friday to get Jack to sign my papers and to show Tom all my digital files and hopefully get a decent grade for my "Independent Study" that I did with him this past semester. Thanks, Tom. Now I just need to e-mail teachers about my academic elective ind. study, unless I decide to just take another credit in the fall, which is now possible due to Tom crediting this semester with the class with him. I'd rather do my ind. study though, so I'll send off a few e-mails today and see what is possible.

Friday night I have a "date" with Brittany after she gets off at work at 6. Kyle may come visit since he is unexpectedly out of a job since his employer has unexpectedly been incarcerated, which he found out when he unexpectedly got a call from his boss's wife this morning. Then up to Jaye's to spend the night in South jersey and up to mum's on Sunday to celebrate mother's day. Spend the week in jersey, see Mary Murphy for lunch, maybe hang out with Mazur again, maybe Lessard, maybe Candace and Sarah and Kayla after their school is over. Then back down to Baltimore for another half week of boredom until classes start, which leads to actually only 2 and a half weeks of daily history classes.

I want to say I'm torn about what to do after that, but really I'm not. Even if everyone I know has left, I probably would still want to go back to Ballyvaughan. It feels like home. I can sit by the pier and watch the bay. I can walk down the street without having to worry about getting mugged and I won't have to pay attention to the "Campus Safety Alerts" telling me that apparently the SAME 6 foot tall African American teenager has mugged another MICA student or that another girl has been raped 8 blocks from campus. I can work part time and spend the rest of my time in the pubs I know, where frat boys don't hang out and pints aren't served in half-pint plastic cups and I can sit on the grass anywhere I please and write to my hearts content.

I'm not going to lie. I'm not incredibly excited about fall semester. I just want to get it over with. I'm so close to finishing it, I might as well. But it doesn't mean I have to be happy about it. No, I don't really know what I'm going to do afterwards, so don't ask, trust me I'm thinking about it but as far as I've gotten is wanting to go to some "third-world" country and do volunteer work or attempt to get an artist's residency in Europe (which I will also be discussing with the Career Development office on Friday).

I'm so uninspired.
I have no idea what to do for senior thesis because Tom says it should be an "on-going" thing that I can go back and reshoot multiple times. But there's nothing here I want to really take photos of. All of it lies across borders somewhere. Or at least across state lines. So that isn't very helpful. Oh joy.

Also bummed because my friend in Paris is now moving to New York, oh city I loathe above most others.

In other news, I finished yet another book, so now moving on to the 4th one since my return.